Hello,
Just have a chance to signing in tonite, many things happen to me lately, many tears, laughed n arhh sure too many, I couldn't explain 1 by 1.
I try hard n still trying to take the positive side on all probs happened to me.
I believe God have settle something very great for me through this pain!
The story is...
I still wanna to thx to my X for da diNner few days ago, I remembered that I didn't say thx to him after da dinner :)!
It's da 1st dinner after da broke up since half years ago, I really enjoyed da food, da chatting, n da togetherness???
But guys tell u all one thing...now i feels free let him go, let him with her, n I wish them all da best!
I love u all, says no to drug guys!
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
DREAMS....
U can dreams as much as u want since dreaming is free, I have a lots of dream, really a lot, every times I keeps dreaming, I will not stop dreaming, and continue to make my dream come true.
I would say some of my dreams have come true, thanks God for it, some of them maybe have to work harder to make it true or maybe it will not come true?? Ehmm I have to be realistic, its not every thing I want I could get it =)
As a human my mood is up n down, sometimes I full of spirit to get my dreams come true, at the other time I have no spirit to do anything, I needs support, inspiration, and advices from people around n people who love me!
2 years ago when I resigned from my first job, and I dreams to get a job with higher salary, well I got it, I could prove it to a boss of my best friend who said that I am too ambitious, coz he thought my current salary was too spectacular for a lil girl like me…
For me, only 2 think to get our dreams come true:
• work for it, u dare to dream u dare to work for it, it’s impossible to get the dream when u only sit on your comfort zone and do nothing, I never heard that any dream fall down from the sky, so have to WORK for it.
• Pray for it, God will help us to make our dreams come true, if we have work and pray, and still we could not get it, believe me, God should be arrange something better for us, don’t be sad of it
I am not the one who active every week go for church, I am not the one who religious, I just a person who really believe in God, really I believe, I keeps praying for my dreams and I try hard to get it.
Readers, I know u all can get your dreams too, we tries and prays together for make our dreams come true ya!
Miss u all, miss my niece and friends in spore…
Lophee u all!! xox
I would say some of my dreams have come true, thanks God for it, some of them maybe have to work harder to make it true or maybe it will not come true?? Ehmm I have to be realistic, its not every thing I want I could get it =)
As a human my mood is up n down, sometimes I full of spirit to get my dreams come true, at the other time I have no spirit to do anything, I needs support, inspiration, and advices from people around n people who love me!
2 years ago when I resigned from my first job, and I dreams to get a job with higher salary, well I got it, I could prove it to a boss of my best friend who said that I am too ambitious, coz he thought my current salary was too spectacular for a lil girl like me…
For me, only 2 think to get our dreams come true:
• work for it, u dare to dream u dare to work for it, it’s impossible to get the dream when u only sit on your comfort zone and do nothing, I never heard that any dream fall down from the sky, so have to WORK for it.
• Pray for it, God will help us to make our dreams come true, if we have work and pray, and still we could not get it, believe me, God should be arrange something better for us, don’t be sad of it
I am not the one who active every week go for church, I am not the one who religious, I just a person who really believe in God, really I believe, I keeps praying for my dreams and I try hard to get it.
Readers, I know u all can get your dreams too, we tries and prays together for make our dreams come true ya!
Miss u all, miss my niece and friends in spore…
Lophee u all!! xox
Thursday, December 18, 2008
why oh why
poor me, still can not sleep however i tried! tired, sleepy but i could not sleep, why? that's the question that i have not got the answer till this second.
i don't have any insomnia before, i am very easy to fall sleep last time, i just got insomnia since month ago, i think since the day break up =(
guys, don't tell me that only him can help me to cover my insomnia, it's impossible, i don't want to fall to the same hole for the fourth times, says am stupid enough for did the same mistake for three times, now no more stupid me!!!!!
some of my friends already realized that i no more wore a ring in my left, yes they right, i taken up the ring since week ago, i keeps it in my rest room LOL. it's meaning less now, i am not the owner of it anymore, Ring...let's find your owner by yourself ok =)
very lucky me have a best daddy in the world, still being daddy's little daughter of the age of 24 in next 2 weeks, yesterday morning sms daddy for help, in any condition, daddy never says no to me, daddy still there to help me, how to get a future hb as good as my daddy??
i will travel back to J-town by tomorrow morning flight, hope to have a fun trip in there, and really hope my s pass can be approve by early january 2009 so i will be start the new job after my holiday...Lord help me yeah...but if the s pass is not approved by the MOM then i will be fine too, there is should be something better for me!!!
ganbatte for myself, work hard, pray hard. and u can get what u want, cia yo cia yooooooo xoxo
listening to "why oh why" by juwita suwito, the lyric:
a moment i can pretend
a sorry i should have said
with both of u being the space
takes my heart of bright away
i just wasn't pretend
in perfection that what i am
confusion just to get sad
i guess that i shouldn't pretend
to love u anyway
i won't give up again
so tell me why oh why should there be a reason to love
why oh why i don't need to know what i want
love it is but being with u
and with u i know why
the one day i will take with me
the eyes n the smile so t
every times i think about u
u make everything seem bright
u make wishes come true
if only i knew u need is some love
i wouldn't given that what u deserve
that is no one else...
anyone have the original lyric of this song? i write it when i listened to the song, some still missing, some maybe not right, so i need the original one....
WOW...someone sent me a link to this song's lyric, thank u so much, really thanks ya...! readers, here we go with the right lyric...am sorry for previous lyric, there is alot of wrong text hihihi!
The moment I can‘t pretend
The sorry I should have said
The thought of you being in despair
Tears my heart up right away
I just wasn’t prepared
Imperfection that’s what I am
Confusion just to get sad
I guess that I shouldn’t pretend to love you anyway
I won’t give up again
So tell me why oh why
Should there be a reason to love
Why oh why
I don’t need another
I want nothing else but being with you
And with you I know why
The one thing I’ll take with me
The eyes that smile so tenderly
Every time I think about you
You may carry things seem right
You make wishes come true
So tell me why oh why
Should there be a reason to love
Why oh why
I don’t need another
I want nothing else but being with you
And with you I know why
If only I knew what you need was some love
I would have given you the best that you deserve
There’s no one else I’d rather share my life than with you
Think of what’s between us
And love will help to guide us
Why oh why
Should there be a reason to love
Why oh why
I don’t need another
I want nothing else but being with you
And with you I know why
meaningful and i love it. thx for my buddy who copied for me this song xox
why oh why...heehhehe forget it!!!
love ya all...cup cup...xoxo
i don't have any insomnia before, i am very easy to fall sleep last time, i just got insomnia since month ago, i think since the day break up =(
guys, don't tell me that only him can help me to cover my insomnia, it's impossible, i don't want to fall to the same hole for the fourth times, says am stupid enough for did the same mistake for three times, now no more stupid me!!!!!
some of my friends already realized that i no more wore a ring in my left, yes they right, i taken up the ring since week ago, i keeps it in my rest room LOL. it's meaning less now, i am not the owner of it anymore, Ring...let's find your owner by yourself ok =)
very lucky me have a best daddy in the world, still being daddy's little daughter of the age of 24 in next 2 weeks, yesterday morning sms daddy for help, in any condition, daddy never says no to me, daddy still there to help me, how to get a future hb as good as my daddy??
i will travel back to J-town by tomorrow morning flight, hope to have a fun trip in there, and really hope my s pass can be approve by early january 2009 so i will be start the new job after my holiday...Lord help me yeah...but if the s pass is not approved by the MOM then i will be fine too, there is should be something better for me!!!
ganbatte for myself, work hard, pray hard. and u can get what u want, cia yo cia yooooooo xoxo
listening to "why oh why" by juwita suwito, the lyric:
a moment i can pretend
a sorry i should have said
with both of u being the space
takes my heart of bright away
i just wasn't pretend
in perfection that what i am
confusion just to get sad
i guess that i shouldn't pretend
to love u anyway
i won't give up again
so tell me why oh why should there be a reason to love
why oh why i don't need to know what i want
love it is but being with u
and with u i know why
the one day i will take with me
the eyes n the smile so t
every times i think about u
u make everything seem bright
u make wishes come true
if only i knew u need is some love
i wouldn't given that what u deserve
that is no one else...
anyone have the original lyric of this song? i write it when i listened to the song, some still missing, some maybe not right, so i need the original one....
WOW...someone sent me a link to this song's lyric, thank u so much, really thanks ya...! readers, here we go with the right lyric...am sorry for previous lyric, there is alot of wrong text hihihi!
The moment I can‘t pretend
The sorry I should have said
The thought of you being in despair
Tears my heart up right away
I just wasn’t prepared
Imperfection that’s what I am
Confusion just to get sad
I guess that I shouldn’t pretend to love you anyway
I won’t give up again
So tell me why oh why
Should there be a reason to love
Why oh why
I don’t need another
I want nothing else but being with you
And with you I know why
The one thing I’ll take with me
The eyes that smile so tenderly
Every time I think about you
You may carry things seem right
You make wishes come true
So tell me why oh why
Should there be a reason to love
Why oh why
I don’t need another
I want nothing else but being with you
And with you I know why
If only I knew what you need was some love
I would have given you the best that you deserve
There’s no one else I’d rather share my life than with you
Think of what’s between us
And love will help to guide us
Why oh why
Should there be a reason to love
Why oh why
I don’t need another
I want nothing else but being with you
And with you I know why
meaningful and i love it. thx for my buddy who copied for me this song xox
why oh why...heehhehe forget it!!!
love ya all...cup cup...xoxo
Sunday, December 14, 2008
let's your heArt talk xoxo
eating cheese while sit around at living room with three of my buddies, everyone busy with their thing, JC is editing her pics with paint support, HF is chatting, E is playing his psp...and i am eating cheese and downloading some software =)
this few days have no mood to write my blog, it's not about i don't have stories to tell, just feeling lazy to move my fingers on the keyboard, i have two more drafts since couple days ago, i have not finish it =(
promised to a friend who always read my blog to give my shopping result story, till today the story is in draft, sorry...
let's your heart talk, HS advised me, don't push yourself to write if you are no in the writing mood, yes he is right, my blog is about my world, i have to talk from my heart, thanks for nice advised!
few minutes ago received a call from EE..he just lost his panasonic camera in a cab, i am sorry to hear that, huhuhu poor! i borrow his panasonic to a party before,every of my friends told that is really a nice camera, the color, the model, very lux emmm don't be too sad ed...experience is a best teacher in life, so next time you must take a better care of your thing lol. xoxo
today i am full till max, could not count how many kind of foods i ate since morning to evening, thanks buddies to accompany my whole saturday!
need to sleep, tomorrow wanna go to branded sales, emmm!!!
J-town am coming soon!!
p.s thanks to my sweetest niece for borrow me her macbook to publish this blog ckckckk my acer out of connection, damn...
this few days have no mood to write my blog, it's not about i don't have stories to tell, just feeling lazy to move my fingers on the keyboard, i have two more drafts since couple days ago, i have not finish it =(
promised to a friend who always read my blog to give my shopping result story, till today the story is in draft, sorry...
let's your heart talk, HS advised me, don't push yourself to write if you are no in the writing mood, yes he is right, my blog is about my world, i have to talk from my heart, thanks for nice advised!
few minutes ago received a call from EE..he just lost his panasonic camera in a cab, i am sorry to hear that, huhuhu poor! i borrow his panasonic to a party before,every of my friends told that is really a nice camera, the color, the model, very lux emmm don't be too sad ed...experience is a best teacher in life, so next time you must take a better care of your thing lol. xoxo
today i am full till max, could not count how many kind of foods i ate since morning to evening, thanks buddies to accompany my whole saturday!
need to sleep, tomorrow wanna go to branded sales, emmm!!!
J-town am coming soon!!
p.s thanks to my sweetest niece for borrow me her macbook to publish this blog ckckckk my acer out of connection, damn...
Friday, December 12, 2008
Mr. kindly ;(
the whole night i was awake, i could not sleep even for an hours, the affect of it~~~ i will get fed up 100x easier than usual ^69^ oh my gosh i think that's why yesterday morning i had a fight with the boss of accounting in my company, it's my second time to have a conversation problem with him, out of whose fault, i am as a junior i would like to says my deepest apologize to him! well, here the story, give you all chance to make the judgment whose fault was it??
i was chatting with a friend, simply i asked her "why the commission did delay so long, have not out till today 11.12.08?" shocking me, she said the commission was out at 4th, nah why i did not receive any amount when i checked my account 2 days ago? tried to call one of the accounting staff who is always help me on this stuff, her boss answered the call, i said am looking for linda, linda was resign, he replied. ouh ok!
i said Mr. Erw.. am going to check my commission status, i heard from other it was out last week, but i have not received any, i tell in softly, really, he answered me have you check to the bank? ouh no, i was check in atm, he replied check to the bank first after see the result just complaint, emmmm so he means i did not check and make a stupid complaining?? speak to myself, tenang...sabar...! still try my best to answer him in soft but a bit strict now, "please understand me, i am in sg, there is no our local bank in sg here, tell me what is the difference i check direct to the bank and through atm?" a funny answered came out from mouth of a accounting boss, sg atm is different with our local atm, oh oh my oh my!
i continued complaining regarding i did not receive any of this month commission slip which is sent by linda every month through email, as a boss you must control linda to handover all her job to the person who take over linda job, included send commission slip to me, send commission slip to your email is not our job description, we kindly help you on that only, he replied, suck a fantastic replied of a boss of accounting again, ouh ok kindly help me, so i must sent a thousand thanks to linda, sorry ya not for you, well, my blog readers, if accounting (payroll) did not prepared salary slip then what's their job arh????
ok mr. kindly, it seems not worthy to waste my phone credit on you, i hanged up the phone then...
thinking^o^ who could help on this~~~ arh finally i ym vic, he asked me to call vindi (accounting staff) for confirmation...and straightly i got my phone and make a call to vindi, readers...vindi said ouh i don't be informed by anyone that your salary is by transferring to your bank account instead of taken cheque directly, poor teamwork, but it's ok, vindi is much friendly talk then the boss "Mr. kindly" so she promised to transfer by shortly, and she done. Mr. kindly, shall give you a big applause, horayyy you are the kindest person i ever met, asked me to check but your staff have not transfer to me, i check till die also get big "ziro", next time must argued with reason ok, remember lol.
so readers, that is the story, without any adding or editing, it's just pure story, i plans to record the next chance conversation with him, it's possible happen the part third story, if record then i will share the recording in my blog hahaha
overall, am fine now, i feels guilty also, how come i shouted to a man at the age of my daddy, i think he is younger than my dad lah, but looked a bit old already...i was out of control that time, less slept, blablalala. here again my deepest and most truly apologize yeah!!!
i am sorry Lord, i was being rude, forgive me!
i was chatting with a friend, simply i asked her "why the commission did delay so long, have not out till today 11.12.08?" shocking me, she said the commission was out at 4th, nah why i did not receive any amount when i checked my account 2 days ago? tried to call one of the accounting staff who is always help me on this stuff, her boss answered the call, i said am looking for linda, linda was resign, he replied. ouh ok!
i said Mr. Erw.. am going to check my commission status, i heard from other it was out last week, but i have not received any, i tell in softly, really, he answered me have you check to the bank? ouh no, i was check in atm, he replied check to the bank first after see the result just complaint, emmmm so he means i did not check and make a stupid complaining?? speak to myself, tenang...sabar...! still try my best to answer him in soft but a bit strict now, "please understand me, i am in sg, there is no our local bank in sg here, tell me what is the difference i check direct to the bank and through atm?" a funny answered came out from mouth of a accounting boss, sg atm is different with our local atm, oh oh my oh my!
i continued complaining regarding i did not receive any of this month commission slip which is sent by linda every month through email, as a boss you must control linda to handover all her job to the person who take over linda job, included send commission slip to me, send commission slip to your email is not our job description, we kindly help you on that only, he replied, suck a fantastic replied of a boss of accounting again, ouh ok kindly help me, so i must sent a thousand thanks to linda, sorry ya not for you, well, my blog readers, if accounting (payroll) did not prepared salary slip then what's their job arh????
ok mr. kindly, it seems not worthy to waste my phone credit on you, i hanged up the phone then...
thinking^o^ who could help on this~~~ arh finally i ym vic, he asked me to call vindi (accounting staff) for confirmation...and straightly i got my phone and make a call to vindi, readers...vindi said ouh i don't be informed by anyone that your salary is by transferring to your bank account instead of taken cheque directly, poor teamwork, but it's ok, vindi is much friendly talk then the boss "Mr. kindly" so she promised to transfer by shortly, and she done. Mr. kindly, shall give you a big applause, horayyy you are the kindest person i ever met, asked me to check but your staff have not transfer to me, i check till die also get big "ziro", next time must argued with reason ok, remember lol.
so readers, that is the story, without any adding or editing, it's just pure story, i plans to record the next chance conversation with him, it's possible happen the part third story, if record then i will share the recording in my blog hahaha
overall, am fine now, i feels guilty also, how come i shouted to a man at the age of my daddy, i think he is younger than my dad lah, but looked a bit old already...i was out of control that time, less slept, blablalala. here again my deepest and most truly apologize yeah!!!
i am sorry Lord, i was being rude, forgive me!
Sunday, December 7, 2008
sunday's update
it's Sunday, i just wake up =) very piggie oo, my mom said nowadays girls are very lucky, could wake up late, sleep as long as they wants, when my mom was at the age of me, she already having my eldest sister, she needs to take care of her and doing housework too, slept very late but woke up very early, haih how poor the girls at my mom's time?!!!!
am going to have bowl of cereal, still waiting for the boiled water, smell very good from kitchen, and there my housemate is preparing her lunch.
having a back pain now huhu, i think yesterday is tiring enough, the photo session just taken much energy of mine, of course the photographer also very tired, his face could tell. damn, the photo is not good enough, he said, yesterday was raining at the botanic garden, he admired of sunny day but what could do? there is rainy instead of sunny, but luckily few photos is nice enough, still could pick for the competition, for heart diseases campaign, wish him luck yeah!!!!
my housemate who is cooking brunch suddenly questioning me, is the photographer your bf? (she met him when he came for indoor session at my condo). nope, simple and quick answered, he is my friend, we worked at the same company before, so we knows each other very well.
honestly, am boring with this type of question already haha in my facebook, friends keep asking who is the guy in pic with me, he is the photographer lor, it's my fault yeah why i uploaded the photo with him, but i did not know the photo have so much impact like this!!
whatever people think, now i try to enjoy my "single" days after 3 weeks (even more) gaining the 3rd break up with him in my ten years relationship, stupid me, wasted my valuable times on him (b^^d)
it's kind of worry to start a new relationship u know, yesterday my friend was asking, is her friend still got chance if he wanna to tackle me? a spontaneous answered of me, "i need time to recover". and she understood.
i finished my cereal, now im going to take my shower, doing medi n pedicure, and i have an indoor photo appointment (i hope it cancel for today!!! hahaha).
dear someone who is always view my blog update, and always give comment through messenger instead of direct comment in blog, sigh, here my latest "curhat", hope u enjoy it =)
ok, i really will be late if am not off now!!
love u all (dad, mom, aco, sis miss u alots!!
dad, same question again, can i be a model???? i know ur answer lahhhh!!! =(
GBU
Thursday, December 4, 2008
being respect (o^o)
another new day, very hungry now, actually it is since yesterday late night i feels hungry, i'm just too lazy to get something to eat "laziest girl in town ^o^ i guess" i could not sleep yesterday, however i tried, still could not sleep, i was still awake at 4 am, many thing was running on my mind, it is tough, i don't know what happen with me!!!
i am sorry readers (if any) i always served all of you by the stories of my boring side life, recently no much happy stories of mine, but i promise i will serve with the happiest stories of mine one day, ya i will do it one day (o"o)
recently i am watching a taiwan's drama, titled fated to love u, i think u guys should watch it, very nice stories, romantic yet funny, telling about "a mistaken which is ending up happily" hmm it just a movie!
nothing better to do now, i am looking outside from my living room window, it's raining, am really not enjoy raining when i am being single like now, just feeling very lonely, that's why i prefer sunny than rainy, let me imagine a sunny day at beach side, lying down at the sands, reading or just have a casual chat with someone, oww how nice is it???! stop dreaming***
yesterday night i do promised to a friend of mine to publish his poem on my blog, here we go...
now i’m alone..
and everythings seems goin wrong..
i’m alone..
i’m all alone..
no one beside me,
and it’s just emptyness i feel
what has happened?
i’m alone
i’m all alone
i can’t believe i could be the one,
to be with u under morning sun, see the moon and the nightingale,
sing along with us
you’re the only one who drive me crazy
you’re the only one fills my fantasy room,
nevere gonna stop,
all that fantasy
i leave my life for you
thank you for loving me baby
i think this is a give from god to have u here…
and everythings seems goin wrong..
i’m alone..
i’m all alone..
no one beside me,
and it’s just emptyness i feel
what has happened?
i’m alone
i’m all alone
i can’t believe i could be the one,
to be with u under morning sun, see the moon and the nightingale,
sing along with us
you’re the only one who drive me crazy
you’re the only one fills my fantasy room,
nevere gonna stop,
all that fantasy
i leave my life for you
thank you for loving me baby
i think this is a give from god to have u here…
created by: someone in somewhere (he requested not to publish his name)
he is quite frequently send me poem, he said he is not a "pujangga" but he wrote "apa adanya" but for me u r pujangga or apa adanya is not a big matter for me, i would not take to my heart (o^o)
another friend who is also often send me poem, his name WAYAN, nickname or given name i am not sure, i even don't know how his look, he is just a mysterious person for me, but however his poem is giving me positive affect sometime, i know there is still someone named wayan who care about me even other ignored me, so thanks much to u, wayan!
lately, i have quite lots free time for visiting my friendster, and it's surprising me with the number of visitor on my friendster, it's over 50 people r visiting mine in a day, and it's more than more visitor each day, some of them sending me smile, message me, and also requested for being my friend, i really thanks for the visiting, messaging, and requesting, but since it's quite a lots, deepest apologize from me, i could not reply urs one by one in quick, but for sure i really appreciate, and feels being respect by all of u, i love u all!
what is respect really mean? well i am respect my nephew who was draw the colorful robot for me in his early age of 8, so the drawing here i post, i wanna to show him that the drawing is meaningful for me, coz i respect him, it just that simple "RESPECT"
to be continue....
he is quite frequently send me poem, he said he is not a "pujangga" but he wrote "apa adanya" but for me u r pujangga or apa adanya is not a big matter for me, i would not take to my heart (o^o)
another friend who is also often send me poem, his name WAYAN, nickname or given name i am not sure, i even don't know how his look, he is just a mysterious person for me, but however his poem is giving me positive affect sometime, i know there is still someone named wayan who care about me even other ignored me, so thanks much to u, wayan!
lately, i have quite lots free time for visiting my friendster, and it's surprising me with the number of visitor on my friendster, it's over 50 people r visiting mine in a day, and it's more than more visitor each day, some of them sending me smile, message me, and also requested for being my friend, i really thanks for the visiting, messaging, and requesting, but since it's quite a lots, deepest apologize from me, i could not reply urs one by one in quick, but for sure i really appreciate, and feels being respect by all of u, i love u all!
what is respect really mean? well i am respect my nephew who was draw the colorful robot for me in his early age of 8, so the drawing here i post, i wanna to show him that the drawing is meaningful for me, coz i respect him, it just that simple "RESPECT"
to be continue....
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